Thinking

Well it's about 9:30 on Wednesday. On Wednesdays I go and see my grandparent's. Well today was the first time I went to my "Grandparent's" house and my grandfather wasn't there. I was sad considering I can't believe he is gone and it has only been 9 days since we barried him. Two of my aunt's and I along with my cousin have said we would make it a habit to go on Wednesdays and just have a girl's day. It hurts cause the last time I was there with the kids (Aug. 13th 2008) grandpa went to the store and he came back with some band aids. Well his band aids are still sitting on the side table next to the lamp where he left them. So I am just sitting here thinking about my grandfather's and my great grandma who I have lost in my 27 yrs of being here. My great grandmother who I was close to passed when I was 16. My great grandfather passed when I was I think 7 yrs old or so. Mind you I have always been close to my grandparent's all my life, I'm so blessed my parent's gave me the chance to get so close to them while they were here. They were like my other parent's in a way. They gave me anything, they were there to talk, came to my sporting events, graduation, wedding, the birth of my children. Now all I have are my grandmother's. We barried my grandpa Veit Nov. 10th 2006. And now my grandpa Hobartsch just over a week ago. It hurts to look at AJ and know how much he loved to go see him, and how he asked about him. Yes he's 2 but just like my parent's I made sure he knew his great grandfather before his time was up. And still to this day he will ask for him if he sees pictures. He has no clue he will never see him again when he goes over there and that hurts me. But thats life I know. It's better to love and lost, then to not have loved at all! It's just so fresh on my mind and it brings back so many memories that I have with them all, and it makes me smile!!